January 28, 2012
On the landing of leadership
This last week I was able to share coffee with Lisa Espinelli Chinn (Intervarsity VP ) who is a sixty-something woman, spiritual leader, ministry leader, mother of 3 and mentor to many. My words tumbled out of me--at this point in life I have been feeling a bit stuck. I look behind me and a lot of ground has been covered. My energies are shifting, my passion feels stretched thin, and I am becoming increasingly protective of my time and heart. When I look ahead, the future seems blurry and dense.
I listed through what is on my plate, what I am tired of, my impending fortieth birthday, what's seems complicated. Ten years ago my life seemed so much clearer and defined. I assumed that clarity would continue and now it seems formless and dim.
Lisa said to me: "You aren't stuck, you are at a landing." She went on to say that I have climbed a lot of steps and now I am at a landing. There are two or more staircases at this point, and all have other landings. The landing is space to contemplate, to rest, to regroup. Life is full of landings. And as you get older, there are more landings, not less. At some point, I will choose a staircase to climb, but at this point, it's wait and rest on the landing.
I know I'll be processing a lot about this landing that I am on and about what the new stairs there are to climb. I usually think in terms of hiking a mountain, instead of climbing stairs. But whether it's a staircase or an overlook point on the mountain pathway, it's time to delight in the pause and not fear it.
It is interesting how life's blueprint becomes at times less clear then it was before.
As you hit life or work milestones do you find more clarity or more ambiguity?